have you guys ever felt really really tired of pushing, chasing, that all you want is for the other person to understand you?

ever felt disappointed? take that feeling you feel towards one person, multiply it by 60 plus.
well, you get the disappointment i feel.

ever felt scared/stressed ? take that feeling, multiply it by 80, and you get my worries for you.

the mid year exams are coming up, but there is still no sense of urgency.

two days ago was 1F's file check. it was a day that pushed me to my limits. my classes have tested my patience time and again, i've scolded time and again. i know students hate to listen to nagging from their teachers, because i was once a student as well. you dont care abt what happens in the future because all you care abt is block catching and fun fun fun. perhaps when you guys go up to upper sec, you will be touched by what your teachers do for you and eventually get around doing work at the last min. perhaps then you will finally see reason.
i am still waiting for that day to come.

do you know why i do chasing? it tired me to the bone really, most teachers hate this part and the marking part too..
because even if you choose to give up on yourself, i will never give up on you. please try your hardest.

you can tell me you dont want to do mathematics because you just dont know it at all. there are many sources of help. me, your textbook, your notebook, every place you can find, as long as you want to find it. it is all about how much you want to put in.

before i started teaching, ive heard of teachers being pushed to the limit where they can no longer control their emotions. i never thought that it will happen to me. i never thought this can be so hard.

but something runs in my head everytime, it says dont give up. dont give up. dont give up.

btw, everyone failed before. i have. and you will never imagine how badly i have failed. but the impt part is not the failing part, its the part where you show the world you will not go down like that.

im still waiting.